everyone is totally the worst. the times has an article in which wasps throw around the word "inappropriate" about their neighbors not wearing clothes all the time. which--naked? in their own goddamn apartments? with their neighbors maybe looking out the window occasionally? oh dear, dear, dear. i've never seen an armpit in my life, i haven't, no siree, and armpits are inapPROpriate as all-get-out.

delicious dinner, but left feeling insecure. it's weird feeling judged by a friend i've definitely been/am judgy about, and weird to feel weird about it. note to self: don't make shit like that obvious. it feels bad.

want to cry, again. ALWAYS want to cry past midnight. STILL so much work to do. can't do it/think i can't. will try to do it tomorrow.

also: really really cold today. wanted to sit outside for a while, regretted it immediately.

i don't want to live here every again. i want to live somewhere where i'm nowhere near the weirdest person.